And Fall has a way of doing that when your mind is clear one minute and jumbled the next. When you make a commitment but then forget what it is and to whom it is for. When you make watered down promises that never come true. You bask in the hope of someone else's and hope they'll follow through. To smile. To shrug. To say it's no big deal. Is it? To white lie and wonder if it's been noticed. To hear big words and nod along as though you understand. To sleep and waver. To be awake and not listen. When the highway is open and you count the yellow tickers. To daze. To not know the date. The month. To slap your knee and the next minute forget why. To stick your tongue out in quiet rebellion. When you trace the circles under your eyes the third day in a row. To be your age. Sometimes. Not often. To not be your age. Often. To wonder what they're doing, when they are 408 miles away.